Looking Back, Looking Forward

“And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.” ‭ Ezekiel‬ 36:26‬

Something miraculous. Something beyond me. Something that cannot be explained. 

I do not remember what I had been searching for so desperately. The burning passion of younger days definitely seem to have passed. I keep wondering what had me so yearning for God. 

Now, I take a look at myself and see an angry, frustrated, disappointed little boy, completely lost in this confusing world, unwilling to move an inch. 

Yet, I remain hopeful, Perhaps this will all change. Perhaps I will find what I was looking for. Perhaps I will be found yet again. Perhaps this beaten heart, now so quick to be in arms, will be tenderly comforted. Perhaps I will yet again take up his calling. 

"He said to them, 'Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation. Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.'" Mark 16:15-18