On Lust

While they were enjoying themselves, some of the wicked men of the city surrounded the house. Pounding on the door, they shouted to the old man who owned the house, “Bring out the man who came to your house so we can have sex with him.”
The owner of the house went outside and said to them, “No, my friends, don’t be so vile. Since this man is my guest, don’t do this outrageous thing. Look, here is my virgin daughter, and his concubine. I will bring them out to you now, and you can use them and do to them whatever you wish. But as for this man, don’t do such an outrageous thing.”
But the men would not listen to him. So the man took his concubine and sent her outside to them, and they raped her and abused her throughout the night, and at dawn they let her go. At daybreak the woman went back to the house where her master was staying, fell down at the door and lay there until daylight.
When her master got up in the morning and opened the door of the house and stepped out to continue on his way, there lay his concubine, fallen in the doorway of the house, with her hands on the threshold. He said to her, “Get up; let’s go.” But there was no answer. Then the man put her on his donkey and set out for home.
When he reached home, he took a knife and cut up his concubine, limb by limb, into twelve parts and sent them into all the areas of Israel. Everyone who saw it was saying to one another, “Such a thing has never been seen or done, not since the day the Israelites came up out of Egypt. Just imagine! We must do something! So speak up!”

Judges 19:22-30

Twelve Body Pieces
David and Bathsheba
Absalom and concubines
Tamar raped
Samson and Delilah
Revelation and the Harlot

Think of the consequences.

No Turning Back

집에 가는 길 지하철을 타면
수많은 사람들이 나를 지나쳐간다
그 많은 사람들 각자
자신들의 삶을 살아가는 모습을 보면
나는 어디서 무얼하고 있나
아무도 모를 것만 같은 곳에서

세상 등지고 열심히 살아가면
언젠가는 당신을 위해
작은 힘이 될 수 있겠다는 생각
그런 생각인가 보다

Caritate tua, for your love

Adoption to Love

A story

There was a wealthy man who also had a kind heart. This was seen through his love of children. Perhaps that is why he owned a toy shop, wanting to make children smile.

One Christmas day, he invited kids from the children's home and allowed each to take a gift from the store. The kids leaped with joy ran around the shop, searching for the perfect one. As the man was happily watching the children, he felt a little tug. A child, with glistening eyes, looked up to the man, ever so shy. With a soft heart, the wealthy man scrunched down and looked at the child and asked, "would you like to go searching for something you like?" The child, still too shy, did not say anything. The child simply held on. The man, filled with grace, took the child as his own, for the child held onto the his deepest desire.


God allowed me the time and heart to volunteer at a local child care shelter. I would help these kids study, maybe even teach them something. Just yesterday, I was in charge of taking them outside to the playground. Ten or so kids started playing dodgeball.

One little girl who got tagged out would not let go of me. She just held on, danced around me, pulled me down, told me to jump up and down with her. She would give me a hug, hold my hand and smile. Although each and every child was equally in my heart, this one really took my attention. She poured out her heart, wishing to receive the same.

love.

Near Midnight Stupidity

Why am I reminded of you whenever I pray?
I ask of God, please help me forget another day.

Then again I wonder.
Are you ever reminded of me?

Please say hello.

Dusk and Dawn

Dusk.

An end. The last moment.
Curtains closing, darkness surrounding. 
Sometimes fearful, sometimes relieving. 
Death, powerless before it. 

Dawn.
A beginning. A new beginning.
Rebirth. Resurrection. 
Always coming before, always coming after.

“They are like sheep and are destined to die; death will be their shepherd (but the upright will prevail over them in the morning). Their forms will decay in the grave, far from their princely mansions.” Psalm 49:14

Repentance and Confessions

Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.

For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
and justified when you judge.
Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
you taught me wisdom in that secret place.

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.

Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
so that sinners will turn back to you.
Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
you who are God my Savior,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
Open my lips, Lord,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart
you, God, will not despise.

May it please you to prosper Zion,
to build up the walls of Jerusalem.
Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,
in burnt offerings offered whole;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.

Psalm 51:1-19

“If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us.” 1 John 1:8-10

More on David and Goliath

Special thanks to my friend ReClaim for sharing this with me. 

http://www.ted.com/talks/malcolm_gladwell_the_unheard_story_of_david_and_goliath.htm

I say this quite often, but I am no theologian. I cannot prove whether the statements made by Malcolm Gladwell are indeed completely true. 

Two points I wanted to make from this, however, was that there are people out there desperately studying the ancient texts and histories related to the Bible. Yet, there are countless amounts of people simply carefree, disinterested in what it has to say. I strongly believe that you live as much as you know. The world of the Spirit is so much greater than the surface facts. It is a well never drying, a cave, never ending. 

Second, why do you keep thinking you are an underdog? God is with you. If that is not enough, he has already prepared you for everything to come. Your so-called enemy? Is full of flaws, critically weak, overbearing in sight, lacking in integrity. 

You are no grasshopper. Rise and face the challenge. 

새벽기도 가는 길

안개 가득한 찬 아침 공기를 마실 때에

고요함 가운데 입에서 찬양이 흘러 나올 때에

하나님의 말씀이 선포 될 때에

졸린 몸을 이끌고 다시 나아갈 때에

살아있음을 느낍니다

Our Greatest Fear By Marianne Williamson

Our Greatest Fear By Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other

people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Eyes

“As we have heard, so we have seen…” Psalm 48:8a

What more could we want in life than to see what we have heard, 

all the glorious wonders promised to us?

"Then I saw 'a new heaven and a new earth,' for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, 'Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.' 

He who was seated on the throne said, 'I am making everything new!' Then he said, 'Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.'

He said to me: 'It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I will give water without cost from the spring of the water of life. Those who are victorious will inherit all this, and I will be their God and they will be my children. But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars—they will be consigned to the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death.'" Revelation 21:1-8