Life Realizations

I'm slowly realizing that reality is as is, and no fantastic adventures lie ahead.

Dreams and hopes shattered powerlessly before limitations of life.

Better find a new goal, somewhere here on Earth, somewhere within God. 

Lost Presence

 "Then he led me to the gate, the gate facing east. And behold, the glory of the God of Israel was coming from the east. And the sound of his coming was like the sound of many waters, and the earth shone with his glory. And the vision I saw was just like the vision that I had seen when he came to destroy the city, and just like the vision that I had seen by the Chebar canal. And I fell on my face. As the glory of the LORD entered the temple by the gate facing east, the Spirit lifted me up and brought me into the inner court; and behold, the glory of the LORD filled the temple." Ezekiel 43:1-5

God suddenly had me realize that I had drifted off quite a bit. It was always the little details that brings about changes. I had neglected the daily reflections, the prayers, the reading of the Bible and all. 

Upon closing my eyes and praying, I imagined perhaps God's presence falling here in the hospital, in my room, in me ultimately, all the wonders and the glory of the world falling completely right here where I stand. 

The presence of God was something I had forgotten in a long time. It was what had me breathing. Upon His presence, nothing of this worldly worries would seem important. I long for that day. 

Recent Thoughts #1251777

All the expectations, fantasies shattered

Trying to make the best of what is left

Perseverance, consistency, pride and dignity

Remembering what was once of worth

Glory is what i used to seek, perhaps

Hope, faith, something is missing

Love will guide me through