Recent Thoughts on Love

Was there anything that was precious to me? Was there anyone so important to me that I could not do without? 

I seemed to have lived life a step back from it all. I never felt fully engaged to anything. All seemed ephemeral and I decided never to get attached. 

I wondered if loving God was so difficult precisely because I never learned to love anything. Nothing was too precious, not even myself. How was I to love others if I had not loved myself? 

가을바람과 함께

떨어지는 낙엽들과 함께 찾아온 가을바람은 마음의 깊은 곳까지 들어와 잊혀져있던 감정들을 깨우고 떠나는 것만 같았다. 그렇게 쓸쓸한 겨울을 맞이할 것만 같았는데, 마른 나뭇잎 바스락 거리는 소리도 들리지 않을 정도로 조용히 너는 내게 다가왔다. 많이 힘들어 하던 시절 속서로는 위로가 되어주었고, 그렇게 한 시절이 지나 성큼 가까워진 너를 보고 있으니 마음이 자연스레 따뜻해졌다. 때 묻지 않은 너이기에, 선하고 온유했던 너이기에, 이해심 가득하고 기다려주는 너이기에 지금까지 내가 두려움 없이 나의 마음들을 보여줄 수 있었다. 마음을 넘어 보이는 아름다움까지 가득 품고 있는 너와 오랜 시간 좋은 추억들 한아름 남기고 싶다는 마음이 이젠 꽃이 되어 피어 오르고 있다. 언제나 그렇게 영롱하게 빛나주었으면. 

Stay Bright

Apologies, they seem never enough.
I hope you are well, hope you are happy.
Stay bright, stay right.
Congratulations, forevermore.
I'll see you soon, eternity awaits for us.
Within the palace of God, 
in his loving embrace. 

Waiting Game

"This is how you are to build it: The ark is to be three hundred cubits long, fifty cubits wide and thirty cubits high. Make a roof for it, leaving below the roof an opening one cubit high all around. Put a door in the side of the ark and make lower, middle and upper decks." Genesis 6:15-16

An ark of His saving grace. It was to protect Noah and his family from the coming flood. He was to take in wild animals as well. He was to wait in the ark until God's judgment passed. Odd enough, the ark had no means to navigate. It had no sails, no rudders let alone any directions to prepare oars. 

Noah was to simply float. No sense of direction. No sense of destination. He was to wait. 

I have always sought goals and dreams. I planned and acted upon them. Yet, now I am at a point where there really seems to be nothing there to do but to wait for the Lord. Like Noah, his drifting will not last his entire lifetime. It will come to an end where he can prepare and plan accordingly. For now, for me, I'll wait. 

Shine Like No Other

And their eyes were watching God, through us.
That is what we are, living a life in a fishbowl.
Whenever we walk, turn and act,
they wait to see how we respond,
to agony and pain, temptations and trauma.
Do we fall or rise to the challenge?
Do we reflect the glory of God?
Or taint the image of Him, the Creator?
Yes, His glory shall never fade,
but we are the messengers of God,
for He has called us to be so.
Now is the time, today is the day.
Shine like no other. Shine

Pizza Party!

"How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth!" Psalm 119-103

Simple question: How many of you would gather to a bible study rather than to a pizza party?

The basic necessities, the carnal desires always seem to outrun our spiritual desires. I’m not chiding anyone for that, but what I wanted to point out was, do you really love God’s words? Do you really recognize that you are a child of God? Do your actions reflect God’s love poured out? The judge is God alone. I am no better. I should be the last person to criticize anyone. I just wanted to ask, to call and to remind.

Truth is so shrouded by stuff. Stuff, not because of my lack of vocabulary, but no other word fits so perfectly. Stuff gets in the way, from important to meaningless. It really is everything. All bad and all good can be obstacles to seeing the truth. How much passion will you grow for the Bible? Will you have enough to carry on your struggles to seek Him?