Random Questions and Answers

1. Pick the year you die vs. Pick the way you die
- Although it would be nice to know when I will die as it will have me be ever so passionate in living life to the fullest, a year is too long of a time to be waiting. It could mean that I could die early January or live until the last day of December. By choosing the way of dying, I could choose to die peacefully in sleep. By doing so, ever day would be lived as if it were my last.

2. Have a stadium named after you vs. Have a university names after you
- If I was having a stadium named after me for having achieved great feats in athletics, I would definitely choose the stadium as that would mean that I were a stellar athlete. Knowing, however, that I am far from having talents that of a professional athlete, I think I would choose neither of the options, for I would not want my name to be left throughout ages and cultures. From dust to dust I say.

3. Have free Apple products forever vs. Have free Wifi wherever you go
- Wifi. Definitely. It would make traveling much easier. Plus, I don't really have that much desires for electronics.

4. Fulfill your biggest wish vs. Resolve your biggest regret
- Up until now, I can't say I have not made regretful decisions, but none of it were too big to leave me crippled. I guess I have been blessed in such forgetfulness. Thus, I would choose to fulfill my biggest wish. For quite some years, I had wanted to be the world's best bachelor, rich, famous, good-looking, charming, a devout Christian, and an overall great man to be with.

5. Have your own private island vs. Have your own private jet
- I am going to have to take the easy way out again. Private islands, private jets all seem too much to handle. I think I have done my share of flying in my younger years, and I don't think I'll visit the island too much. A vacation in some tropical island may be great once or twice in life. I am doubting the cost effectiveness of a private island. Is it possible to just have that much in my bank account?

6. Be able to read minds vs. Be able to travel at light speed
- I wrestled with the idea of reading minds. It would be a great skill to have, but at the same time, it seems too manipulative. I think it is important to have people be themselves, have parts unknown to others. I guess I hold privacy to a great extent. Plus, being able to travel at light speed would mean being able to travel at a lesser speed, boosting my athletic abilities. I'll dominate street ball.

7. Have $1 million in Amazon gift cards vs. Have $100,000 in cash
- I have had the pleasure of searching through the Amazon website, looking for gifts for various people, and well, it was tiring. Not to say that going shopping is any easier, but trying to spend a million dollars online doesn't really seem fun to do.

8. Be best friends forever with your favorite celebrity vs. Date your celebrity crush for only 2 years
- This one was probably the toughest one, and it was because I value friendship and love to an equal level. In that sense, I would choose friendship as the conditions state that the friendship will be forever. Love is definitely tempting, but two years as compared to forever seems minuscule. Could it be that dating is only for two years as the option to get married is possible? Eh. I'll leave it at that.

9. Have free gas for 25 years vs. Have your dream car
- My immediate answer would be the dream car, perhaps a Maserati, but 25 years is a long time. Cars may go out of style while gas doesn't. Maybe I am being too real, too old to be answering such dumb questions.

10. Be a ninja vs. Be a pirate
- Ninja. Everyday. I don't like the idea of having the sea as the mainstay of life. The isolation and the lack of freedom is suffocating. Plus, I love the idea of being hidden in plain sight. Something about the shadows covering me is exhilarating.

11. Continue on with your life vs. Restart your life
- Although this one is rather similar to question 4, the conditions are rather lacking. What are the benefits of restarting life? Do I have any memories of the past? Is it possible to live the same life only with minor changes? God has allowed a lot to be accomplished so far, and I don't want to throw it all away for just another same life to be lived. If any hint of previous life is left with restarting, I would choose to restart quite a few times. If not, I'm rather complacent with my current situation.

12. Live the life of fame and wealth vs. Live in Harry Potter's World
- Again, I think I'll have to rely on unmentioned conditions. If living in Harry Potter's World consists of the actual setting, all inclusive of the villain and chaos that ensued, I think the first option is definitely the better choice. If I were allowed the power of magic right here in this world, I would go for the magic, but only in conditions that there were very limited people with such blessings. Having many people would mean systems and laws governing magic usage. Having to live with two separate laws would be a headache. Having said all that, I guess the fame and wealth would be the easier choice.

13. Have the ability to read minds vs Have the ability to see the future
- A slight twist I guess. The question is a bit more fun as I had not chosen the mind reading ability before. The problem with seeing the future would be that it is damn frightening. The benefit of knowing what is to come will be awesome, but the price would be having to see all the tragedies as well. Then again, reading minds would be too much of a headache. Without knowing the others' thoughts, ignorance will be a bliss. I wouldn't have to worry about reacting to others constantly. My final answer would be that if I could choose to see the future whenever I wanted to, I would go for the second option.

Proposal Songs Maybe

그대 내게 올 때 - 커피소년
그런 사랑 - 뉴클리어스
청혼 - 노을
좋아요~ - 불독맨션
Say You Love Me - 정기고
Just the Way You are - Bruno Mars
I Do - 비
다행이다 - 이적
사랑해도 될까요 - 유리상자
아로하 - 쿨
Nothing Better - 브라운아이드소울
I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran

Brotherhood in Danger

I have seen friendship broken, 
families burned and nations crumbled,
all because of the stupidity of men towards women. 
Why is brotherhood comparatively so flippant?

Black and White

Am I a part of the cure? Or am I a part of the disease?
Am I the light shining upon the world or the darkness that blinds?
Am I breathing in life? Or am I breathing out death?
Am I to be saved or to be forsaken?

Identity and Works

“But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine." Isaiah 43:1

"But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light." 1 Peter 2:9

If you ever start wondering what you had to do, remember first who you were.

Prayer (I) by George Herbert

Prayer (I) by George Herbert

Prayer the church's banquet, angel's age, 
God's breath in man returning to his birth, 
The soul in paraphrase, heart in pilgrimage, 
The Christian plummet sounding heav'n and earth 
Engine against th' Almighty, sinner's tow'r, 
Reversed thunder, Christ-side-piercing spear, 
The six-days world transposing in an hour, 
A kind of tune, which all things hear and fear; 
Softness, and peace, and joy, and love, and bliss, 
Exalted manna, gladness of the best, 
Heaven in ordinary, man well drest, 
The milky way, the bird of Paradise, 
Church-bells beyond the stars heard, the soul's blood, 
The land of spices; something understood. 

Praying for Ansan

He reminded me of the times I had been a foreigner in a land afar. The Bible session consisted of one to two kids and a teacher. She was probably a college student, and she really had no reason, no ties to continue on these lessons. For one, I was never consistent in showing up. I don't remember half of the materials she taught, but none of this really seemed to matter to her. If I had been a bit more mature, I could have taken the time to ask her about her journey with Christ. Even after I had graduated, now almost 10 years ago, I was reminded of her dedication. 

Here I am now, wondering if I should be a part of the volunteer team. I have probably my life's biggest exam coming up quickly. The place is hours far from where I am now. I barely even know the kids there, let alone the teachers. Yet, He keeps telling me that I should go, to the kids caught up in a strange country, with very few that really understand them. 

I can't be with them everyday, nor every week, but this is something I could make an effort in. What more could there be in missions but just to be with others, praising the name of Jesus? 

Excerpt from Intimate Moments with the Savior - Ken Gire

"A savior has been born. Heir to the glory the shepherds saw. Yet his only gold is that lent him by the straw. His only silver, borrowed from the moon. His only jewels, the left over light of the stars.

Excerpt from Intimate Moments with the Savior - Ken Gire

Lasting Sins

While taking some time to reflect and meditate on God's words, I saw how broken I was with respect to how God had originally made us. As it was common to have personal sins smear direct to generations and on, despite God's promise of never judging generations for their ancestors' sins, I wanted to get right. I wanted to leave only the good to my kids: optimism, patience, humility, joy and purity.

Hungering for Significance

What was something that I had trouble giving up?

My standing in the world, how others see me, my hunger for significance

“Does God control everthing?” Tim Keller

“Does God control everthing?” Tim Keller: https://youtu.be/MDbKCZodtZI

Just wanted to share quickly a sermon message. The message answered a lot of questions I had with regards to believing in Christ. I hope you find answers as I have myself. 

One sided Love

A man expressed his feelings to a girl, but she rejected him. He was upset, but he was not sad. His friends asked him why he didn't feel the sorrow. He simply replied, "Why should I be sad? I have lost someone that did not love me, but she has lost someone who loved her.

- Edited from an excerpt found floating online.

Winter Has Come

With winter, all is left bare, but as spring returns, leaves come only in the living.

Am I alive? Or will I stay barren as light comes?