Note to Self #642178764

Engage.

Short Conversation

"마음이 있으면 먼저 연락하겠지."

"마음은 있는데 차마 연락을 못하고 있다면?"

"그 정도 마음이면 다시 안 만나는 게 맞아."

"이번에는 다르지 않을까?"

"그 때 느꼈던 문제들은 여전히 남아있을걸."

"내가 달라졌는데도?"

"네가 쫓고 있는 건 네가 만들어낸 허상일 뿐이야."

"좋은 사람을 만날 수 있을까?"

"하나님의 뜻에 달려 있겠지."

"나도 빨리 행복하고 싶은걸?"

"이미 행복할 수 있어."

Prayer of Jonah

"In my distress I called to the LORD, and he answered me.
From deep in the realm of the dead I called for help, and you listened to my cry.
You hurled me into the depths, into the very heart of the seas, 
and the currents swirled about me; all your waves and breakers swept over me.
I said, 'I have been banished from your sight; 
yet I will look again toward your holy temple.'
The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me;
seaweed was wrapped around my head.
To the roots of the mountains I sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever.
But you, LORD my God, brought my life up from the pit.

When my life was ebbing away, I remembered you, LORD,
and my prayer rose to you, to your holy temple. 

Those who cling to worthless idols turn away from God's love for them.
But I, with shouts of grateful praise, will sacrifice to you.
What I have vowed I will make good.
I will say, 'Salvation comes from the LORD.'"

Prayer of Jonah - Jonah 2:2-9

Class is in Session

Listen up, quiet down, class is in session.
I am the professor, the chief in charge.
Get out your pens, for this is class 101.
Rudimentary, elementary, but oh so necessary.
Its how to lose, how to lose well,
all that in the name of God.
The first step, killing your ego.
The next, falling the footsteps.
Come one, come all.
Take up your cross and walk with me
to failure, to destruction, to glory and resurrection. 

God's Presence

"and David inquired of the LORD, 'Shall I pursue this raiding party? Will I overtake them?' 'Pursue them,' he answered. 'You will certainly overtake them and succeed in the rescue.'" 1 Samuel 30:8

God answers. He is with you, always. Do not fear. 

Random Thought #75221421

I can't begin to describe the depths of my heart over the last few days. All in all, however, it's just a stupid Jedi-mind trick, a foolish world full of foolish people. It's nice to see you doing well, or are your doing well? Maybe some other time, maybe some other world. I love what you did with your hair, but I think I'll be hiding myself for a while now. Into the depths I will go, hoping to come back after having found what I am looking for. Until then.