Preclinic Dedication

I will gladly lay down my life to become what you want me to become. 
Though no joy may follow this instant, knowing You is more than enough for me

Collab: ReClaim, Part 8

[GrasDeo]

‘ey, yo. I’m lying down in my room,

Probably ‘cuz I ate a big batch of ‘shroom.

‘ey man, I just wanna dream,

but the cold society simply cuts like laser beam

난 지금 너무 졸려, 무한한 책임에 난 너무 쫄려

세상의 유혹에 난 다시 홀려, 내 정신이 완전 팔려

[ReClaim]

Yo I’m lying down in my bed, its two thirty five

Give me a high five from across the world

We don’t need to be physically next to each other,

‘cuz we close like that, we spiritual brothers

Like Johanthan and David, ye

[GrasDeo]

This is freestylin’. I ain’t even thinking right now.

오늘 왠일로 은택이가 랩을 해주네

오늘은 무슨 일로 흘러 나오네

새벽 두시반에 깨어 있어서 정신을 놓아버렸네

Oh 그는 잠도 잘 안오는 우울한 맨, blues brother, ye

‘ey yo Imma keep this flow going

‘cuz you just too slow going yeah.

난 다시 달려 너무 후달려

I’m locked up in this kingdom called boredom

My bro of flow I’mma go get that dough

‘cuz I wanna be filthy rich for the Lord

[ReClaim]

Yo 학교에서 할게 너무나도 많아

히브리어, Spiritual Formation, New Testament

그리고 주일과 금요일, 토요일마다 사역.

할게 너무 많아서 바빠 죽겠어, 몸은 하나

바빠도 There’s always room for procrastination in this nation.

Yeah I bring segregation to my own self,

and the lump in my brain, Schizophrenic.

Yeah I don’t even know what I’m saying

시간이 너무 늦었어. 이젠 좀 자야겠어 yeah

Sixty

My dad is now 60 years old in Korean age. He still has nearly two years before he becomes actually 60 in the American sense as he was born in December (if you don't understand what I'm talking about, you probably are not Korean enough :P). My mom is fast approaching that age as well, while I'm looking to be 30 in upcoming years. 

My father had never talked about money with us brothers. Recently in the past couple of years, however, he has made us increasingly aware of the financial status of the family. My dad has about 6 years left of work before he has to retire. He says that he will find another job for several more years, but he has given my brother I some responsibility, some "burden" to support the parents. 

I actually don't mind at all. I actually feel it is necessary for me to support my parents as they grow older, but I too have started to become aware of money. I had never thought about money seriously. I never thought I had plenty, but I was never in need. Somehow, I managed to mesh that up with my "faith" and started to believe that I would never need to worry about it at all, because God would "provide."

Of course God will provide, but that doesn't give me the luxury and comfort of doing whatever I want. Yes, a part of me wishes for lots of money, maybe even perhaps meet someone with lots of money, but I know that deep down inside, money and luxury itself is not why I started to think about it. 

I guess the biggest problem circles right back to my parents growing older. I had witnessed my grandfather pretty wither away in the hospital bed. He was nearly immobile for the last months of his life, and I can honestly say that I still try to avoid thinking about the whole experience. Somewhere in my mind, I started to intertwine that with my parents. I guess I'm sorely afraid that my parents will go through the same issue. 

Every time I head home, I see that my parents have gotten a bit older since the last time I saw them. I see them with new back pains and fevers. I see them with atrophied muscles and thicker wrinkles. I see them wasting away, and I hurts my heart to see it all. 

I am afraid that I may not be able to provide for them when they are in need. I am afraid that I may not be there when they need me. I am afraid that I will lose them soon. 

Life Choices

'ey yo, I think about my life choices, the voices
All the nice houses and Rolls Royces
I long to be famous,
riding high on that broomstick, nimbus
Constantly runnin' and, shotgunnin' and
At some point i stop and ask,
"what was my task?"
I take a sip from the flask of life,
taking off my mask
I get down beside the crown,
the crown of thorns, as I cut off my horns,
saying Immanuel, God with us

Sung to "You are My All in All"

What is it I wanna say?
That my passion is a long gone day.

That i am losing track, stepping back,
losing all that I once had.

Maybe you're no longer my number one agenda,
hoping it doesn't fade like another propaganda.

Still, all my memories slide and point.
Screw the place or time. Here's what I'll say

Collab: ReClaim, Part 7

[GrasDeo]
Seoul's soulful, 
ghouls in every corner
holes in hearts, 
waiting to be filled 
with bowls full of money rolls

[ReClaim]
Money rolls, cars roll. 
We all hustle and are too busy with the lawls. 
Where‘s Mr. Nice guy‘s genuine smile, 
Mrs. Laundry‘s slow cook mile 
and the kid‘s old school style?

Time to Shine

I know you may think poetry is out of touch

And that Hip to the hop is where it’s at

But there’s a reason why I write so much

So take a listen to my latest skat

You may think that I got no flow

And that I’m just another shade of gray

But here’s the deal, it's the reason I glow

I find my own passion, my own way

I find joy in what I do ‘cuz I define my own cool

I’m not gonna be just another Dr. Seuss Who

So quit trying to get me off my stool