When asked how to pray, Jesus starts by saying "Our Father." From a sermon I have heard, the pastor talks about how Jesus does not start by calling out God as Creator, Master, nor King, but by saying Father.
In essence, whatever is said, the recognition of the relationship itself is what is important. God is our Father. We are his children, and we should act like a child, not in the sense of immaturity, but as family.
I did understand this message, but such a way of praying was rather difficult for me. I thought about how I talked to my father, and quickly found the answer.
I have lived apart from my father for some years. My parents are happily married, but in order for my brother and I to study abroad, my mother came to live with us, leaving dad behind for some years. During those times, I was going through puberty and a lot of identity construction.
Though I am back in Korea, I do not see my parents that often. I do have a great relationship with my dad, but I wondered if I talked about anything serious lately. Anything that was remotely serious would be cut short because we would end up arguing.
I did not feel like my father was listening to what I was really saying. My father must have felt that I was pretty young and immature. Whatever the reasons, I realized that I have not been able to talk to my father in a father-son way, and that was why I had trouble talking to God as my Father.
I am not sure when I will fully understand or learn how to talk to my parents, but I hope that will come soon as I wish to know more about my parents. Time is passing, and I want to make every moment precious.
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