Driving to Philadelphia

I had mentioned my drive to Philadelphia a long time ago (referred here named ‘Ideas’). The drive from Pittsburgh to Philadelphia is roughly 5-6 hours. I had talked about what I did during the trip, but this time, I wanted to talk about trips in general, specifically, driving trips.

There looms a sense of anxiety, or more so, a fear in traveling long distances. Maybe it was because I was alone on the trip. I had learned that this may be a small phobia of mine. My mind would think if something were to happen to me in the middle of nowhere, I would not be able to get help, which would generate a broad sense of anxiety.

Another part of me likes to believe that I am simply afraid of being lost from the crowd. Long distance traveling is an easy way to meet endless roads with nothing in sight. I would literally be alone for miles on without anybody around. Maybe I am fearful because I hold too much of my identity among the people. My existence is held in meaning through comparisons and relationships with people.

Perhaps from now on, I should intentionally find myself with no one in sight, maybe enjoy the weather, look around to see what nature is doing besides me. Perhaps I will find God. Perhaps I will find myself in God. Perhaps I will no longer be afraid, as I am held deep in his hands.