Night Stars

 Where did they all go? All the little stars that shined bright for attention. The dreams that they carried, all the bright futures that could be. One by one, faded into the night sky. All that is left is but a tiny glimmering star, waiting to shine its last light before becoming one with the darkness, at home, at rest.

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"The game is not yet over for this player!"

Just a simple phrase I heard from an announcer. She talked about how she just thought it was the game people were watching, but soon she found out there were people who turned on the game just to hear her speak. One depressed listener shared a story about how he found strength from what she said, as if she was speaking to him. It's not over yet, it's not over yet. The game is not over for this player, for this man.

Times like these, I really feel there is power in words, in speech.

The Aftermaths

What is beyond, happily ever after?
What happens in the everyday life of the protagonists?
Those that found love, those that conquered evil. Those that achieved?
Jesus has conquered death, saved us from our sins.
We wait upon his arrival to become a part of the happily ever after.
But what about the now? The in-between.
The war was won, but battles still arise.
Tragedy still strikes, hardships linger.
What does tomorrow hold?
What are we to hold onto?

Write After 40

I was told as I grow older, all that I had written may seem shallow and simply wrong.
I sincerely do hope that I grow each day, and really do learn more about life.

보내지 않을 편지

자꾸 찌질하게 연락해서 미안해. 잊을 법하면 멍청하게도 네 생각이 나서, 가뜩이나 부족한 수면 시간을 그렇게 깎아 먹고 있네. 이전과는 다르게 현실이 너무 각박해져서일까, 괜한 호기심일까. 마지막으로 순수하게 누군가를 좋아했던 게 너이기에, 함께했던 그 순간들이 나에겐 행복했던 시간들이기에, 나를 좋아해 주는 네가 고맙기에, 나 역시도 너를 많이 좋아했지만 제대로 마음을 이어가지 못해서 더 미련이 남는 것 같네.

좋은 사람 만나고 있으리라 믿어. 연락을 하지 않는 게 예의겠지만, 그럼에도 너의 안부를 묻는 건 이번에는 내가 정말로 큰마음을 먹어서야. 네가 그 어느 누구를 만나고 있다 해도 나는 너를 좋아하고 있고, 기다리고 싶고, 너와 함께 평생을 이어가고 싶어.

어젯밤 꿈에서는 네가 답장을 보내왔어. 비록 청첩장이었지만. 꿈은 그저 꿈이길 바라며 기다리고 있을게.

Sermon Notes #51432634

Blurb from a sermon.

When you are humbled, do you actually get humility?
Catastrophe leading to clarity.
Discipline to discerment.
Life always brings to further down even after you hit rock hottom.
Yet, repentence shall bring sanity.

Miracles are not extraordinary happenings, but rather a man repenting and God forgiving.

Magical Hospital Life

It's strange to work in an hospital. You know, in a room there's a father holding his son for the first time, in another room there's a son holding his father for the last time.

And then in another room there's a guy with a remote stuck in the anus. It's the circle of life. 

- Anonymous internet post

It's been months since I started working in the hospital. It has been amazingly boring most of the times, because the Korean medical system has a mandatory internship period of one year, in which the interns act on menial doctor jobs around different specialties departments and learn about the hospital system. 

I'm not to say that I did not learn anything. I am learning very much about how a modern hospital operates, and how doctors are to see patients in such conditions. However, it is rather boring. It might get very much exciting as I head into residency, but I still have no clue what God wants from me. 

One thing nice about being busy is that I do not have much time to think or worry about anything in life. 

In any case, the hospital is indeed a magical place. It is a weird place indeed. I'm still trying to find how I would fit in.