Traces of God During Lecture

"Then Jesus said to him, 'See that you don't tell anyone. But go, show yourself to the priest and offer the gift Moses commanded, as a testimony to them.'" Matthew 8:4

A traditional Korean folktale of healing has several components: a sick mother who has tried everything to get well but to no avail, a son who is upright and loving as seen by everyone in town, a supernatural calling that directs the son to a mythical herb somewhere far away, the arduous travel and the happy ending.

This was one of the first points our Pharmacology professor discussed, that our inherent belief of healing to be miraculous needs to be broken. Now, I thought this was true for all Christians as well. Too often, we become passive and blindly ask God for answers to all our life's problems. Often, however, God has already given us a lot of potential to go seek the answers ourselves. How else could you explain all the countless research and findings of the entire civilization? We have knocked, and we have received so many!

Why is it that Jesus tells the man to keep the miraculous healing to himself? Maybe it was to show that our physical needs are no greater news than our spiritual salvation. Why is it that we need to break free to holding onto miracles? Maybe because the only miracle we need to ask for is for us to be messengers of the gospel, not our daily needs.

Morbid Thoughts

I could beg for God to be merciful and bring healing to her and I probably would, but at times I do not think it will happen. Sometimes I think it is a calling to come back home, to come find rest at last.

I sure hope that she finds it.

Climbing Mountains

Moses and Aaron, Nadab and Abihu, and the seventy elders of Israel went up and saw the God of Israel. Under his feet was something like a pavement made of lapis lazuli, as bright blue as the sky. But God did not raise his hand against these leaders of the Israelites; they saw God, and they ate and drank.

The Lord said to Moses, “Come up to me on the mountain and stay here, and I will give you the tablets of stone with the law and commandments I have written for their instruction.”

Then Moses set out with Joshua his aide, and Moses went up on the mountain of God. He said to the elders, “Wait here for us until we come back to you. Aaron and Hur are with you, and anyone involved in a dispute can go to them.”

When Moses went up on the mountain, the cloud covered it, and the glory of the Lord settled on Mount Sinai. For six days the cloud covered the mountain, and on the seventh day the Lord called to Moses from within the cloud. To the Israelites the glory of the Lord looked like a consuming fire on top of the mountain. Then Moses entered the cloud as he went on up the mountain. And he stayed on the mountain forty days and forty nights.

Exodus 24: 9-18

This may very well be the simplest form of our spiritual journey: climbing mountains, desiring to be closer to God, yet all under the presence of the Lord.

I Am

I am a prayer, a culmination of body, mind and soul
I am history, a lineage, kingdoms and families
I am a cry in the dark, a shadow lurking beneath broken dreams
I am selfish. I am shackled
I am the tragedy of modern society
I am a constant battle, a competition, a race

Yet, I am hopeful

I am more than a grade, more than a simple number, a soul in slumber
I am cold, hungry, stressed
Yet I am bold, ready, though pressed, silent
I am a trumpet blast, high above the clouds
I am selfless, joyful and jubilant

I am actively passive and passively active

I am none, yet all

I am a prayer

Fragments of Past

Just some prayer requests I had written

08.26.12
Someone to be with at Service Saturdays / Northway
Being open to people everyday
Academics as a lot for my own
Tuesday Worship to share a passion
EWB for a vision
Meeting someone crazy about God
Thanking others for being a community for me
 
09.15.12

Thanks to God for the Northway small group

09.17.12

Asking for at least one fruit, to love someone more than myself

 

09.24.12
Prayer on not forgetting, keeping my visions clear

 

09.29.12

Prayer on knowing what I truly want

10.25.12

Is it my shortcomings that I find no interest in daily matters?

11.04.12

Road to being a doctor, an obsession? What is greater?

Life of the mundane, Finding joy in YG
Beating temptation

11.14.12

Thankful for nearly a semester’s pull

Begging for passion and purity

Another Day Another Way

Back for more.
Hoping to be graceful this time around.

Content

It's alright
It's all good