더는 슬픔 없네 - 위러브

아침 해 빛나고 환한 빛 감싸네

나는 나아가고 주는 지키시네 

저녁노을 지고 어둠이 찾아와도 

나를 향한 주의 사랑 변치 않으시네 

할렐루야 주의 사랑 

할렐루야 나의 사랑 

주 예수가 이곳으로 나를 위해 와주셨네 

할렐루야 주의 사랑 주의 사랑 

 죄의 굴레 벗고 생명수 마시네 

나의 목자 예수 그를 경배하네 

시련 찾아와도 부서질 수 없음은 

나를 위해 십자가에 못 박히셨기에 

돌아온 자들 잘 버틴 자들 

함께 하기에 더는 슬픔 없네 

하늘이 열려 예수가 왔고 

죽으셨기에 더는 슬픔 없네 

주 향한 사랑 이웃을 사랑 

하기 바쁨에 더는 슬픔 없네 

우리 모두가 함께했기에 

주가 했기에 더는 슬픔 없네

crouching time, hidden memories

I just realized how much I have been writing on this blog. All kinds of literature: poems, lyrics, excerpts, a lot of the Bible, even stories I came up with. Time sure seems fast. Reading back on my previous writings is like looking through a memory box. I even feel a bit giddy. But I sure do feel rather distant from the person who had been keeping up with blog. I definitely lost a bit of passion for writing as the first ever Nobel prize winner in literature is no more. Nonetheless, I will visit more often to leave thoughts and updates.

Losing foot

"He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber." Psalm 121:3

Too many prayers seem unanswered. Yet, the Bible says to hold on, for our God is a living God.

Updates

I really haven't rambled on about my life here in a long time. I guess I have been getting used to writing in Korean most of the time. It really has been over more than 10 years since I have been back home.

I noticed that I have not written much here since I started my residency. Though Family Medicine is not the busiest department in the hospital, being a resident was indeed time-consuming. Plus, I was writing up a residency diary in Korean. 

It has been a year and a half since I finished my residency, but I really haven't found a place to work that really called out to me. The whole doctor's strike that happened last year obviously had a big impact as well. 

I guess the biggest disappointment I had was that being a doctor really wasn't much fun for me. I do recognize that most people would tell me that work is never fun, but I expected at least some sense of accomplishment. In reality, I really don't appreciated, let alone feel any respect while working. 

So, I guess I am still searching for different jobs that would be somewhat bearable. I had been getting pretty frustrated about my life situation, and began ranting on about it to God. Thankfully God had shown me how he is still live and at work, which gave me a sense of peace. 

Hopefully this will last a while, but I guess the most difficult part of it all was that I never really expected my life to turn out this way. Not that my life is in shambles, but I really didn't expect it like this. I thought I would at least be married with kids, with a house and nice job. 

Nonetheless, life still goes on. I am still hopeful that God will lead my life in such unexpected, but exciting ways. 

Please have me in your prayers always. Thanks. 

언제나

지금의 너는 그때의 네가 아니지만
그때의 너를 지금까지 좋아하고 있는 나이기에
지금의 네가 어떤 모습일지라도
그때의, 지금의, 내일의 모습 모두
한결같이 사랑할게



Hospital Life

Perhaps I have been too close to pain and suffering
Death, always by the doorsteps
Never much smiles or laughter
To live, to love, to be
Perhaps the hardest in life

Togetherness

God, all the world tells me that you are near
that you are here, with me, all through times
but all are but words, laying soft on ears

never in the heart, for it rages on

assurances for a better tomorrow lies

but the days are long, my mind tires

oh Lord, be not another's, 

but one that I can call my God.