crouching time, hidden memories

I just realized how much I have been writing on this blog. All kinds of literature: poems, lyrics, excerpts, a lot of the Bible, even stories I came up with. Time sure seems fast. Reading back on my previous writings is like looking through a memory box. I even feel a bit giddy. But I sure do feel rather distant from the person who had been keeping up with blog. I definitely lost a bit of passion for writing as the first ever Nobel prize winner in literature is no more. Nonetheless, I will visit more often to leave thoughts and updates.

Losing foot

"He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber." Psalm 121:3

Too many prayers seem unanswered. Yet, the Bible says to hold on, for our God is a living God.

Updates

I really haven't rambled on about my life here in a long time. I guess I have been getting used to writing in Korean most of the time. It really has been over more than 10 years since I have been back home.

I noticed that I have not written much here since I started my residency. Though Family Medicine is not the busiest department in the hospital, being a resident was indeed time-consuming. Plus, I was writing up a residency diary in Korean. 

It has been a year and a half since I finished my residency, but I really haven't found a place to work that really called out to me. The whole doctor's strike that happened last year obviously had a big impact as well. 

I guess the biggest disappointment I had was that being a doctor really wasn't much fun for me. I do recognize that most people would tell me that work is never fun, but I expected at least some sense of accomplishment. In reality, I really don't appreciated, let alone feel any respect while working. 

So, I guess I am still searching for different jobs that would be somewhat bearable. I had been getting pretty frustrated about my life situation, and began ranting on about it to God. Thankfully God had shown me how he is still live and at work, which gave me a sense of peace. 

Hopefully this will last a while, but I guess the most difficult part of it all was that I never really expected my life to turn out this way. Not that my life is in shambles, but I really didn't expect it like this. I thought I would at least be married with kids, with a house and nice job. 

Nonetheless, life still goes on. I am still hopeful that God will lead my life in such unexpected, but exciting ways. 

Please have me in your prayers always. Thanks. 

언제나

지금의 너는 그때의 네가 아니지만
그때의 너를 지금까지 좋아하고 있는 나이기에
지금의 네가 어떤 모습일지라도
그때의, 지금의, 내일의 모습 모두
한결같이 사랑할게